December 2019

I Read a Poem

Hope Merrilees, a basically forgotten T.S. Eliot percursor

So, I read a poem. I read The Wasteland, by T.S. Eliot, knowing nothing about it, I was totally ignorant of how it tied into the First World War if you can believe, I thought it was just going to be about the emptiness of modernity. I quite liked it, it painted intimate, highly-coloured images, although I didn’t really care about the short chapter on the sailor and the final chapter about well, walking through very dry lands.

I gave each section lots of time to sink in and I read them each a few times. I did a bit of background reading about the “Georgian” poets of the 1900s and teens, who still mainly praised the beauty of nature and individual responses to that. I read one academic’s blog which had a section explaining the potential sources for and meanings of each section of The Wasteland, and found that pretty useful, but in the end, we don’t know “exactly” what is going on in The Wasteland, we have interpretations.

Through this blog I was suggested three poems to read alongside of The Wasteland, to contextualize it. Well, two were outright suggested in the academic’s article and linked directly, the third was only mentioned (but we will get to that). So, getting a bit of a taste for something I appear to have been missing my whole life, I read Rupert Brook’s 1912 poem “Grantchester” and found it MARVELOUS. Apparently Georgian poetry, and RHYMES are for me, and I think I will attempt to commit this one to memory. The rhymes are sufficiently jingly enough, I believe, and it praises Cambridge, which is alright I guess. This poem was being offered as the “pre-War” selection, and yes, it preserves the vanished sunshine of those mythic afternoons, of which we have by now heard so much about, absolutely everyone everywhere was having a fantastic time before 1914…but still, I like this poem a lot.

The War poem that was suggested, also as a modern-style poem was “Antwerp” written by Ford Madox Ford and published in 1914. There was despair and the gloom of war here, the waste, the overturning of those old, pretend glorious-battle ideals. One knows that this sort of disillusion happened, and some poets record the carnage, poetically, but it’s wonderful, in a sombre way, for me to read this eyewitness account from so close to the time. Already by 1914 pathos was being admitted as a war-experience, and it would get so much worse. At home I have a book of poetry from the First World War, this made me think I would explore it more. We only ever learned (year after year after year) ‘In Flanders Fields’ which I still have by heart, and its basically the only thing I do.

The most surprising thing, was that when I searched out the third-mentioned poem, which I could only get as a pdf someone had scanned (and it is true, apparently only 175 copies were ever printed) was that it was truly great. The Wasteland is also great, this is not a ranking competition, but what was certainly underplayed on this blog was HOW modern Hope Merrillees’ Paris: A Poem was, published 1919, in both form and typeography. In content it is very similar to The Wasteland which appeared three years later, Paris involves multitudes of Classical allusions, but who or what is speaking is more vague than in The Wasteland, facts and fancies just seem to emanate out of the city of Paris itself. T.S. Eliot’s poem is more people-focused, and in this way, not quite as ‘high-art’ I think, he has to have speakers telling us what to think. You don’t know what is happening in either poem, and they both do make you feel, but I think I prefer Merrilees. I want to read it again. The Wasteland is certainly worth a re-read (except the boring last section, blergh) but there are very few things that strike me exactly right, so much that I would want to read them again.

What is also interesting in this story is the sexism, or I should rather say, the “accidents of history.” It’s true, Merrilees poem didn’t seem to ‘catch-on’ when it was first published, maybe it was even a bit too early. And it has never been reprinted, it seems, outside of scholarly editions of her works, of which now about 5 exist. Apparently there is even an acronym I saw used in just the first few lines of a TLS column I cannot get ahold of, FFM, for “forgotten female modernist.” So maybe there have been a bevy of ladies who just fell into the cracks in The Wasteland.

But, it IS worth nothing that Merrilees’ work was published three years before Eliot’s, by Virginia Woolf’s Hogarth Press, and T.S. Lewis was an acquaintance/friend of hers and also, apparently of Merrilees. I think it is almost a certainty that he read her poem, and the fact that she first mentions April’s unkindness as a month, twice in her poem…it seems…that with some work on the subject it could be established that The Wasteland borrows from Paris: a Poem, mainly with the method of referencing the classical world (I know that is done a lot, but the way in which it is done in both poems seems to a casual reader, quite similar). What T.S. Eliot did not borrow was her interesting typeography (I love it myself) which would have been a bit of a giveaway. Eliot separates his poem into sections headed by Roman numerals just like Ford Madox Ford’s Antwerp (which may be why it was suggested as something that should be read alongside The Wasteland). Ford does not go crazy in his word-imagery though, it is still very “understandable” what is happening in his poem.

I’m just going to end with something that rankled. Now (since about 1990) it is beginning to be realized that there was (at least one) poem which very much presaged The Wasteland. But this certainly hasn’t affected what is taught to us normals. I have only ever heard of T.S. Eliot, and how you should read his modern work which changed everything. Oh, I have also heard of Ezra Pound, and that he did quite a decent amount of pruning to The Wasteland (and also, about his awful politics). And what is worse, is that the academic blog I read also tries to explain Paris: A Poem away, as a coincidence, writing (I’m paraphrasing because I can’t find it again) “it almost seems as if the post-world War I world required such responses.”

I know, I know, it seems tiny. But this is the difference between men’s and women’s contributions. The same blog says The Wasteland is “timeless” and “landmark”, while admitting it has several precedents, but that nevertheless T.S. Eliot “took modernism to new heights.” Not that there has to be a direct comparison, and The Wasteland is also great, but it actually doesn’t go farther than Paris: A Poem, because that poem also plays with the layout of words on a page, which I think makes it categorically “more modern.” And it is fine, to laud a great man, I’m sure that tendency is not going to go away soon. Fine. But it is the totally unconscious down-playing of Merrilees’ poem’s rights of originality and precedence, by implying, oh so casually, only when speaking of her work, that sometimes the Zeitgeist just makes works like this appear. Just births them magically into existence.

No. No. It’s not an accident, when a woman hits upon genius and originality. It is genius. Punkt.

Do read them though. Read all four. This is a new sensation for me, to be able to encourage you to read something I did, but I am ever so glad I read these poems! And I would not be adverse to reading more of any of these authors in the future.

The Year Wanes

This is a stock photo of my mood

I’m having a very mid-November feeling, despite the fact that we are officially on the 12th day of Christmas—if indeed the days started at 12 and counted down until Christmas Eve on the 24th? Is that how it worked? Ah for lost days, lost times and lost ways.But before I go down a nostalgia whirlpool (I can vividly remember writing “The year wanes” in a diary of mine on a gloomy November of highschool or university….probably the year was 2003)…oh for THOSE time and those days…

It’s very odd that the past doesn’t just evaporate when it goes. It can be clearly brought back for seconds-long visions, like my arm reaching over to slap my radio alarm clock—god what happened to that trusty thing—so faithful—everyday at 7am on my blue dresser with the sky lightening and the room frigid. (Well, actually, the moment I recall is from a sunny warm day, must have been a summer morning, when for a second I realized I am living and my brain recorded it permanently…)

Like I said…before we drop through the wormhole…

Oh no, I promise this isn’t drafted (I’d never!) but this leads too well into what I wanted you mention to you, on this blog ostensibly about books but more about my feelings, is that after polishing off The Idiot I read Alice in Wonderland (and Alice Through The Looking Glass, as they were bound together) and I didn’t like either at all.

Now I should say, that since I got back from Canada I was suffering a lot, in my head, from homesickness mainly at first, then that faded out, leaving generalized Very Low Mood for the past few weeks, so much so that when I was reading My Year of Rest and Relaxation, a very depressing book, on the sly, I felt like YES I need this misery-train read right now, but I would ALSO step back and be like “dear Jesus thank you that I’m not in such a bad place as THIS girl” the narrator, god her life was awful. So that book slightly put things into perspective for me. And secondly, I’ve been feeling so anxious overall that I ACTUALLY caved and did what everyone tells you to do, but is “the most under-used treatment” —and I did some exercise (gasp, horror)!

And I’m so out of shape that it’s HARD for me, and it’s only saving grace is that I’m following along to 80s and 90s workout videos on youtube and they are GREAT and kind of hilarious and seem to somehow preserve a totally different, possibly more naive, and more optimistic time.

Yes, when all else fails, at the very last ditch (before therapy) there is exercise….

But where was I? Oh yes. Tumbling. Alice. Yes. I really tried to put away my low mood and read something which I always have meant to, something that people find light and exciting. And I didn’t like it. I can see that it might have been light and exciting for 1890—and oh yes, Alice was a real pert little thing—but I really had to make myself get through it.

This did lead to a conversaton with my boyfriend about how he has something good to say about almost every book ever–and I never do (I did think to myself—IS this depression? Inability to enjoy things?) but I don’t think so. I know what I like (the Anne of Green Gables series, the greatest literary achievement the world has ever known), but Alice just made me tired. I mean, Alice walks around tired herself most of the time, and frustrated at all the nonsense. So yeah, August’s Classic down, disappointment all around…

I really did try by the way, I watched a documentary about Lewis Carroll on youtube, which of course, having the context that he probably was a pedophile only mad it worse, and I watched the Disney cartoon too, searching for the magic. It must not be my kind of magic, though it has delighted generations of readers.

Lest you run away thinking that I myself am tired of my self-imposed 12 Books a Year, or that I have over-extended myself (I have), I have had some thoughts about that. Alice was August’s book, and it took a lot of the effort I had left. I thought about giving up–it’s no fun if you are just making yourself read things you are not enjoying, and I had a big think about the rest of the books I’d like to read for the last 4 months of the year.

I’m now very sure about 3 of them. I want to read, as I’d planned from the start (because I am a very funny girl) The Waste Land for September (with whatever explanatory notes I can grab for free off the internet) because September is back-to-school month in Canada (the joke is that I’m still in school wasting my life—ooh it doesn’t look so good when written out like that, it’s supposed to be read WRY) and although I wanted to read any truly spooky story in October, with the dead leaves swirling, October vanished in the run up to my sister’s wedding (perfectly reasonable), but October is the only time I would read scary stuff, because it’s atmospheric, obviously.

And since that #atmosphere is over, I’m reading The Persians by Aeschylus, because I always wanted to read that and something tells me I am for once hitting the nail, it’s going to be brilliant and I’m going to love it. So that’s good, but so far I’m only in the Introduction to Edith Hall’s edition–still, I was Loving It while I perused it in the waiting room before my visa renewal.

As I had planned, I got ahold of a copy of Cold Comfort Farm for November–it has stood out in my mind for years as the absolute best thing to curl up in as blanket with and snicker to. But surprise, that is not happening, I have only slightly raised my eyebrows once and drawn my mouth down into a firm, but impressed line at another point. (The second one was funny, but so far, every sentence is dripping with a malignering sarcasm, it seems so heavy-handed. I can imagine it is a parody of Thomas Hardy’s novels, full of rural people with raging passions (or similar, I haven’t read him). But I’m a bit miffed–the back said it would be screamingly funny! Perhaps it will pick up.

So, I have 17 days til the end of the year, and 3 short works to read, and a humongous PhD to write—I’m not worried. I have just decided to not proclaim what my last book to read will be, the December book, except to say that it will certainly not be De Rerum Natura-–honestly, what kind of person was I in March? I don’t know her now.

But I’ll tell you two things—I did a big used-book buy on Amazon (wasn’t it big when those euros were slapped into Canadian, eh?!) and I bought quite a lot of the titles that I have been diligently keeping track of in my phone as things I’d like to read next year. So I’m already cheating on my next year’s list, and December, with each other, and I’m not going to write about that situation until the dust settles.

The second thing is (oooh I like how I’m perking up with talking about reading plans, and just a tiny second pisco). As human nature WOULD have it, I realized in the tub that the only thing I want to read Right Now is something I forgot to buy, and that is Schadenfreude, a Memoir. THAT is what I need right now. I’m really struggling with German, I want to be fluent without having to practice with other humans, or read in German (this plan is going as well as it sounds) and my suckiness with the language is increasing my fish-out-of-water-ness daily. This fish struggles with the persistent feeling that the water rubs her the wrong way a lot of the time—this fish is squandering the best opportunity for learning German she will ever have—ugh this fish is so privileged—-And it finally hit me, when I made my brain very quiet, that Schadenfreude is about a person who LOVES German literature (and perhaps also the culture). It’s about an English native speaker who loved German so much she pursued it to a PhD—this book will likely be peppered with love for German that I can absorb and be influenced by, as I’m far too apt to be in most situations!!! I must get it, as an ebook if I must, now now now!!

Originally I was just hing to read because it’s the story of a thwarted academic (from the blurb I have the idea that post-PhD, academia does not love her back) but this approach–how and WHY to love German is much better. Show me why I should care—please don’t start with Goethe, but if you work him in later….I’m listening.

So yes. This has been “The Waning Year,” called a “Reading Wrap-Up/Reading Vlog on youtube when accompanied by pictures. Thank you for attending Slow Scholarship, where we SHOULD endeavor to read in order to contextualize our life, but more often end up inserting literature INTO our lives, with negligible to minor impact on our outlooks. But I bought a new bookcase today, to house the pile of books that have lived on the floor for three months, and I feel hopeful. I must be getting somewhere.